Self Trust
where magic meets real life
Last Saturday I taught twelve people how to read their Akashic Records at the Green Door Folk School in Cedar, MI.
Tucked in the woods in a one room school house, it was a quintessential Northern Michigan wintery day with grey skies and a quiet, big flake snowfall.
The beauty of the day is a delightfully layered and scrumptious cake, and encapsulated so many of the same few themes that seem to consistently show up in my work with people.
And as we became more and more snowed in, I felt myself sinking deeper and deeper into the presence of magic that simply looked like twelve humans growing into more relationship with their self trust that day.
I have the sense that a lot of people think the Akashic Records are quite esoteric, and that the idea of channeling messages from spirits and engaging with guides is reserved for or exclusive only to some.
What I was reminded of throughout the class on Saturday is that the Akashic Records aren’t a portal or “room” sequestered somewhere in the Universe with a specific guest list. The Akashic Records are simply the field of energy within us and all around us that we all have access to at all times. A field that stores information and graciously shares with us with the simplest shift of our intention to open to it. A field that loves us and supports us unconditionally, very much.
From all of my research and data collection of working in that field not only with myself but hundreds of others, the Akashic Field is me, it’s you, it’s the trees, the animals, our guides, ancestors, spirits, the desk even - it’s everything.
In Science and the Akashic Field, Ervin Laszlo basically says that modern physics is starting to agree on one big idea: nothing in the universe is truly separate. He points to something science already acknowledges, the quantum vacuum or zero-point field, which is an invisible field of energy and information that exists everywhere, even in “empty” space.
Laszlo suggests this field could function like a universal memory system, storing information about everything that happens and helping explain why things across space and time seem mysteriously connected.
Science agrees the field exists and that everything is interconnected. Laszlo takes it further, saying this might be the same thing ancient traditions associated with access the Akashic Records.
I am not the most sciencey person. I rely heavily on my own life experience and data collection. Anecdotal evidence. Truth to me is personal, and comes from not one source outside of me but many - including the most important which is that of the communication happening between me and my own intuition.
I find that science isn’t always fact or truth. That there is a hell of a lot of nuance to human life and spirit and to think we can qualify or quantify it with scientific study alone is naive and incredibly one dimensional and in some ways even astonishingly egotistical.
There are complexities we can not even fathom, and yet I find through my work in the Akashic Records that these complexities are showing up more and more as very subtle yet profound events of energetic attuning, opening, receiving, and perceiving.
The human spirit, energy system, and awareness is more powerful than we think. Through my work in the Records, it is apparent that it is necessary now more than ever on this planet that honing in on these systems and sensing practices, and tending to our inner lives, and building upon our self trust, and reclaiming our agency from authorities outside of us is necessary if we are to create meaningful lives that are our own.
And creating meaningful lives that are our own must come before creating meaningful community. It must.
All of that to say, it’s not just me, an energy reader, saying it; science is even saying that there in information invisible but available to us that even ancient civilizations were attuned to. And I don’t know about you but I'm of the belief that if ancient civilizations were doing something that, over time, became more underground or disappeared altogether, it’s probably something we should be paying attention to.
There was a beautiful blend of souls joining me that day; men and women ranging in ages from late 20’s to mid 60’s. We began with brief introductions, and I asked them all to share why they were attending the class and what their intention was for our six hours together.
I did this for a few reasons: to get to know one another, to begin to build our container together of familiarity and connectedness, to give everyone a sense of where everyone else was in their practice, and for me to gather one or two things it seemed everyone was seeking from the class.
Each person’s sharing offered me affirmation, and I grew in my own knowing. I grew in my own belief in three things that I’ve been studying, researching, collecting data, and teaching for years, and that is:
There is nothing more important than self trust
We are all looking for permission slips that give us the go-ahead to think, live, be, work, love, and create in ways that are authentic to who we are in the core of our being
We are all already doing it - what we think want to do in the Akashic Records we are doing in our lives at all times. The self trust, the granting of permission, the sensing and communicating and following a knowing - we’re already doing it, it just doesn’t look like what we think it should.
Many students spoke of needing an internal anchor. A way to tune in. To rely less on external opinions and build self trust. To reconnect to self. To return to spirituality and practices they’d abandoned at some point in their life. To find peace.
I bet if you are reading this, you can likely relate to having a need for more than one of those things too.
So we dove in. We explored what the Akashic Records actually are, how they can support us, and how we receive messages. Intuition, audible words and sentences, visions, sensations and frequencies, metaphor, symbolisms, signs, and synchronicities.
We explored how those messages can be received from God/Spirit/Source/Universe, our spirit guides, ancestors/loved ones who’ve passed, spiritual masters and teachers, perhaps even the Lords of the Akashic Records. And that we don’t always need to get caught up in who or where the message is coming from so long as we can understand it’s just coming from an energetic field. And that if it feels right, true, or resonant - it is real and it is meant for us.
At the lunch break, students were given time to enter their Records. I encouraged going in with an open mind and heart, and without expectation. What resulted couldn’t have been more perfectly aligned to the three-pointed research I mentioned further above. It couldn’t have been more aligned to the intentions I asked each student to weave into the Edge of the bubble of our container in the opening meditation.
And the results were as followed. Many of them felt frustrated that when they opened their Records, seemingly nothing happened. Some said they received visions but weren’t certain what they meant. Some received beautiful messages welcoming them back. One student said she realized she’s been doing this her whole life; a revelation I myself had when I learned to open my Records for the first time with my teacher in a Starbucks in New Mexico. And another received a potent message that they aren’t alone. Incredibly touching considering the new space they’ve found their self in their life.
With further exploration prompted by wonderful group discussion, and my questioning and invitations of curiosities, more themes emerged. One who was frustrated that nothing happened in their Records looked out the window of the school house and immediately saw a cardinal - one who’d shown up multiple times that day in their sight. One that they felt was guiding them. A beautiful example of how they’re already doing what they want to do in the Records, it just looks different than what they thought.
And with that, an invitation to evaluate our relationship to expectation and how locking in to very specific perspectives create limitations in us and our experiences.
Because every single one of them was tuned in that day. They just needed someone to point out how, and normalize the unique method for doing so.
I thought in writing this that there would be a singularly profound notion that would hit you like a freight train and change your life. Or mine. But what this class taught me is that we don’t need that. We don’t need tower moments or spiritual awakenings or moments of reckoning in our lives to create the change we want.
We need more relationship to our own knowing and desires. We need to understand our own unique energetic languages and how our bodies and systems communicate with us. We need to tend to our own inner fires. We need the courage to say no to what is prescribed to us at birth and say yes to creating our own path. We need to feel like that is what is normal. Not falling in line, but creating our own rhythm.
We need to understand the subtle yet profound nature of seemingly minute moments of clarity, sensing, knowing, feeling.
We need someone normalizing all of this. We need people to expand us into knowing that it’s possible. We need people to tell us it is ok to trust what isn’t necessarily familiar, but is deeply, intuitively known.
My experience that day in class, and of 39 years of life, is that at the intersection of magic and real life is self trust. That nothing is more important that seeing ourselves as our own spiritual leaders, authority figures, pathway pavers, and co-creators of the life we want. That partnering with the energies guiding, the fields of information - whether we can see them or not - is beyond normal. It’s necessary.
It is my deliberate and joyful pleasure to be a voice and presence of normalization. To show you the immense power of self trust. And to remind you, that even when you think you’re alone, you are most certainly and indubitably not.
Tallyho,
Jenny
Your great mistake is to act the drama
as if you were alone. As if life
were a progressive and cunning crime
with no witness to the tiny hidden
transgressions. To feel abandoned is to deny
the intimacy of your surroundings. Surely,
even you, at times, have felt the grand array;
the swelling presence, and the chorus, crowding
out your solo voice. You must note
the way the soap dish enables you,
or the window latch grants you freedom.
Alertness is the hidden discipline of familiarity.
The stairs are your mentor of things
to come, the doors have always been there
to frighten you and invite you,
and the tiny speaker in the phone
is your dream-ladder to divinity.Put down the weight of your aloneness and ease into the
conversation. The kettle is singing
even as it pours you a drink, the cooking pots
have left their arrogant aloofness and
seen the good in you at last. All the birds
and creatures of the world are unutterably
themselves. Everything is waiting for you.-David Whyte